After years of hating herself and her body, Lyn McGirr explored the reasons for her obesity. The knowledge she gained has changed her life.
Embarrassed by my body, I couldn’t even face taking my children swimming. The realisation that this wasn’t only hurting me, but was starting to affect my family, left me hating myself.
I didn’t want to feel like this anymore but I didn’t want to exercise. I was embarrassed by the fact that my whole body wobbled just climbing the stairs at home, or playing with the kids in the garden. I hated myself so much I remember thinking: ‘I’ll fail no matter what I do.’
My life finally changed for the better when I joined a counselling group. I started using Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) techniques, alongside a very low-calorie diet. I learnt so much more about myself – the reasons why I overate. The group enabled me to change my whole outlook. I found I was able to walk further, I had more energy and I started exercising.
And, guess what? I discovered I’m not a victim at all – I’m actually a fighter.
After a few weeks’ training, I stepped into a boxing ring for my first competitive fight. I was a bag of nerves but I loved it!
Walking up to that ring is the scariest feeling in the world. Usually I hate being the centre of attention, but as soon as I step into the ring, the crowd just melts away and I feel amazing. It’s just me and my opponent, and surviving round after round leaves me feeling so empowered.
Once the fight is over, the sheer exhaustion I feel is so satisfying, it’s like nothing I’ve ever experienced. The pride and sense of achievement that it leaves me with just makes me feel so alive.
I was so desperately unhappy a few years ago and I thought weight was the reason, but it was the excuse. So I took food out of the equation and focused on me.
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So here I am today. I box. I also play rugby. I'm happy. I love my family. I love my life. And I can't stop smiling.